Pregnancy, Loss, Grief And Beyond Part 3.

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So I was going to stay calm and wait the next appointment………… Yeah, that didn’t happen.
Two days after my scan I found myself phoning the early pregnancy assessment clinic (Epac) to speak to the lady who done my scan, I just wanted her to explain it all to me again and see if there was anything I could do to help the baby’s chances. I was in tears! She was so lovely though, she went through it all with me again, I asked questions and she answered them as best she could. The main thing I wanted to know was could my baby make it? The answer was yes, she said that the baby looked very much as it should, the heartbeat was present and she had no concerns there, I had to go for another scan because they wanted to see that the baby was ok and not that they were expecting me to lose it. In here mind there was nothing wrong with my baby and she wanted another look so she could keep it that way! Such a relief! I’m mean the relief wouldn’t last long because I couldn’t shift the feeling that something was wrong. But for that day at least, I was enjoying being pregnant, I was relaxed and taking photos of my bump and sending them to Nathan. I was so big already, how would we hide the pregnancy for another 8 weeks!?

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