At 10 weeks the fears started creeping in again, I felt so sick and faint all the time, I was struggling to do the school run because I felt so faint and my heart would pound and flutter, I couldn’t eat or drink properly. I tried everything, ginger biscuits, sea bands, mint, anti-sickness medication – if someone said it would help I tried it! Nothing worked and it was getting worse and the only thing I could do was keep going back to the doctor which meant more walking that made me feel even worse, I felt so weak and to top it off i had the beginnings of S.P.D! Everyone kept saying nothing was wrong I just needed to drink more and get some rest, as if that could happen! I tried drinking more, I did drink more but it made no difference at all!
I was an emotional mess flipping from crying my eyes out feeling helpless to fits of rage and wanting to hurt everyone! I had my first midwife appointment at 11 weeks so hopefully that would help!?
It didn’t help, she was very nice and took special note of my mental health, she told me when my next appointment was due but said she was happy to see me whenever I wanted if I needed extra appointments to listen to the heartbeat once I’d reached 16 weeks then she was happy to do that, whatever I needed to help with my mental health. For now all I needed was my 12 week scan so I could see my baby, this all happened in November, my first child would have been 16 on the 15th had I not miscarried, I was finding this year particularly difficult, with that and my fears about Boris (this bump) I was an anxious, tearful and angry mess!
Nayely Adelpha Foundation 