At 8am our alarms went off, we needed to call Gary before he got Londyn ready for school. The midwife came in and introduced herself and asked if we wanted any breakfast.
I don’t remember her name, but I sensed that we had been lucky again, she seemed very friendly. I called Gary and spoke to Londyn, she was so excited that the baby was here, Gary said he would bring her down after he’d taken his girlfriends daughter to school but he couldn’t stick around all day as they had their health visitors appointment today (his girlfriend is pregnant). When the midwife came in with our breakfast we told her that Londyn was coming in to meet the baby and asked her if she could arrange for the Chaplin to come and bless the baby whilst Londyn was there but we didn’t want to talk to her about the arrangements until after Londyn had left, she went off to make a phonecall to arrange it.
We had breakfast and started talking about what we wanted to happen next, having already signed for the post mortem we knew we would definitely be finding out the baby’s gender so in light of that I said if possible I didn’t want the funeral until we knew 100% if Boris was a girl or a boy. Nathan agreed with this and also said that he would like the baby to be cremated as he didn’t like the idea of the baby being stuck in one place, I completely agreed. Although due to the gestational age we could have buried the baby in a plant pot in our garden if we’d wanted to but I didn’t like the Idea of Boris being outside all the time, I wanted him in the house with us where he belonged and out of the cold. So that’s one decision made next one is what happens with the ashes? I didn’t want them scattered, I wanted them in an urn in our house so we could show the baby the world – Nathan felt the same another decision done!
I’m holding Boris whilst we’re having this conversation, his skin has taken the print from his blanket, I rolled him onto his other side to make him more comfortable. The midwife returned to give me more oromorph, it makes me very sleepy so I gave Boris a kiss and put him back to bed.
Gary called, he’s here with Londyn, I went with the midwife to the front desk to meet her. I was very unsteady on my feet. Gary looked so awkward, like he didn’t know what to do or say. I asked Londyn one more time are you sure you want to do this, “yes, definitely” she smiled and off we went back to the room, she came in eyes scanning desperately trying to find the baby. I sat her down and told her that she could hold the baby but she had to hold him in his blanket and she has to go very gentle with his skin, she nodded “ok, where is he?” She asked. I picked up his cot and moved him to her. She smiled so proud, “he’s beautiful mummy” she said, “hello Boris, I’m one of your sisters and I’m sorry you died but I think you can still hear me?” She said softly. “I love you Boris, you’re so cute!” With that the Chaplin arrived, it was Julia, “hello you must be Londyn!” She said. Londyn asked me if she could hold the baby so I sat her in-between Julia and I, Julia started the blessing. I won’t lie, I don’t actually remember what it involved but I do remember she’d printed up a little order of service sheet with Londyn’s name in it. It’s these little details that made such a difference! Once the blessing was finished Julia left and told us to contact her once we are ready to talk.
Londyn asked me if I could get some photos of her and Boris so she will never forget and then it was time for her to go. She kissed her finger and put it on the baby’s cheek, “I love you Boris and I will never forget you, you are an angel now!” She whispered. Then Nathan took the baby from her and she said goodbye and I took her back to Gary. I told him I would call later to check how she was and to keep a close eye on her which of course I already knew he would. They left and I went back to the room to wait for Julia to come back……………
To be continued…..
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