It was a calm drive back, we talked most of the way, it was so different to the drive over, all of the tension had lifted and the air was clear, I didn’t expect to feel so calm!
Nathan dropped me back to the pub and he went to drop the car home and collect Londyn, she’d decided she wanted to come to the wake so she could play with her cousin Jack. As I went to walk in the side door to go up to the function room I saw Daisy, she founded single yellow rose after the loss of her daughter Belle, she said hi and gave me a hug, neither of us said a lot but that’s because we both knew and so words were not necessary. She didn’t come up to the wake as the memories were to hard for her but it ment a lot that she’d shown her face to pay her respects.
I went upstairs and there was a little table with gifts on it for Nayely, it was so nice, our friends had bought little things to go on her shelf with her when she comes home. I’ve thanked them all but I don’t think they’ll ever truly know how touched we were by this gesture, another little thing to show us how our girl impacted on the world and how much she meant to people even though they never got the chance to meet her.
We had a few extra guests at the wake, our friends Charly and Ben were there and a woman I’ve known since I was a child, Dawn, she’d lost her twins 22 years ago to the day so this day was already a difficult one for her, Nayely’s other godmother Kayleigh came up when she’d finished work, Tegenn popped in when she finished work and my sisters Anjis sister-in-law Sarah and her partner came to pay their respects and my younger brother Gabriel and our friend Mel popped up aswell.
On the table was the most beautiful frame and print that Charlie had had made for us along with a baby cherub Angel and some tea light candles, Willow had bought one of her teddies to give to the baby which was just the loveliest thought!, Charly and Ben had given her a letter N and an angel charm on a chain, Mel bought an angel bead decoration that she’d ment to give us for Christmas, Kayleigh gave her a teddy and Auntie Sheila and Laura gave her a crocheted brooch with her name embroidered on it Kimberley gave us an outfit that had belonged to her daughter Destiny and she’d kept back for Nayely and we received cards for her aswell. All of these things would go on her shelf with her and her flowers, a beautiful forever home for our beautiful and very well loved baby.
The wake was good, we all had chance to chat and laugh and smile about some of my crazy cravings and all the things we had hoped for and how blessed we were to have even conceived her. It was nice to have people wanting to say goodbye.
After the wake we took the girls downstairs to get some dinner before taking Londyn back to her dad’s and putting Paisley to bed, while we were waiting for the food to come out Londyn and I had a little chat, she wanted to know how the funeral had gone and if anyone had taken photos for her, I told her they had and she asked if she could see them. We only looked at a few before she asked me to stop and she had a little cry, we hugged for a few minutes and then we ate our dinner, she said she was glad she’d come to the wake and glad she didn’t come to the funeral and that she felt much better now that she’d had a cry.
We took Londyn back to her dad and put Paisley to bed. It wasn’t long before we went to bed ourselves, another seemingly impossible day faced and we’d survived, not long now and our girl would be home with the rest of us!
Nayely Adelpha Foundation 