Anyone who knows me, knows how absolutely petrified of all flying things I am. You’ll also know that I suffer from irrational anxieties when it comes to my children. I live in fear that something awful will happen to them (this has only become worse since the death of Nayely) put those two things together and I’m a complete mess.flying things include wasps and bees, now I’m not scared of them for the fear of being stung, I’m scared of them because they can fly…..However they can sting and some people are allergic to the stings and some allergies can kill and I don’t know if my children are allergic to stings therefore I don’t know if being stung will kill them! As you can imagine, summer in my head is a particularly anxious time.I know it’s irrational and I know it’s not fair to put my fears onto the children and so I do my best to avoid bees and wasps, i.e I don’t have plants in my garden I stay clear of bins in town (I’ll even cross the street to avoid them) and when I do find myself faced with the flying stingers I do my best to hide my fear from the children.I’ve done a pretty good job of it, Londyn is nervous of them but not scared and Paisley thinks they’re pets and she wants to smooth them!So as I said I try to avoid them, or at least I used to until my daughter died. Now, Nayely was born at only 16 weeks gestation, she was tiny (I could hold her in the palm of my hand) so for her to have flowers for her casket they had to be tiny, we opted for forget-me-nots mainly but to be filled in with other tiny meadow flowers. This lead to us wanting a memorial garden for her. Nayelys memorial meadow!I now have loads of flowers in my front garden and loads of flowers equals loads of bee’s, bees I have to take my children past every day more than once a day!The point of this post is to show just how powerful a parents love can be, my children are my world, I’d do absolutely anything for them and I just want people to see that that includes all of them, so when you ask me how many girls I have and I answer 3 even though you can only see 2 I want you to realise that yes I do include my dead daughter and that’s because I would still do anything for her just as I would her sisters, she might not be here in person but for her I face fears I never thought I could and I face them everyday because it makes me feel closer to her!I not only face bees near my children but I embrace them in my garden, Nayelys garden, because they will keep her garden alive, something I couldn’t do for her😔.
And everyday I face my biggest fear, living without one of my children, and I do this because I love my girls, all of them, and I have to live for them for her to live through me.There’s no stronger love than the love a parent has for their children, in heaven and on earth. ❤️👼❤️
Nayely Adelpha Foundation 