Do you ever?

Do you ever just find yourself standing, thinking, wondering, questioning how different your life would have been if your baby had lived?

I’ve found myself doing just that these past couple of days. Still getting on with the tasks in hand but constantly wondering how my life would have changed had Nayely survived.

How much would she have looked like her brother and sisters? Would she have been loud and boisterous? Probably.

I would give anything to know what type of character my little girl would have been. Anything to hear her call me Daddy. To witness the connection she would have had with her mummy. I would give anything for those moments.

So if you find yourself lost in your thoughts just think, there’s a reason that your mind has taken your thought process there. Embrace it, don’t be afraid to daydream about what could have been.